I lost, abruptly

  • By Kada
  • 2012-04-15
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– Miss Elizabeth.

– I have struggled in vain but I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to rosings with the single object of seeing you. I have fought against my better judgement, my family’s expectation, the inferiority of your birth, my rank and circumstance…all those things..but I m willing to put them aside and ask you to end my agony.

– I don’t understand.

– I love you. Most ardently.

– Please do me the honour of accepting my hand.

– Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me. It was unconsciously done.

– Is this your reply?

– Yes, sir.

– Are you laughing at me?

– No.

– Are you rejecting me?

– I’m sure the feelings which you told me, have hindered your regard will help you overcoming it.

– Might I ask why with so little endeavour civility I am thus repulsed?

– and I might as well enquire why with so evident a design of insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgement?

– If I was uncivil, then that is some excuse. But you know I have other reasons. you know I have!

– What reasons?

– Do you think that anything might tempt me to accept the man who has ruined perhaps for ever the happiness of a most beloved sister?

– Do you deny it Mr.Darcy? did you separated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to censure of the world for caprice and my sister to derision for disappointed hopes, involving them both in misery of the acutest kind?

– I do not deny it.

– How could you do it?

– Because I believed your sister indifferent to him.

– Indifferent?

– I watch them most carefully, and realised his attachment was much deeper than hers.

– That’s because she’s shy!

– Bingley too is modest, and was persuaded that she didn’t feel strongly.

– Because you suggested it.

– I did it for his own good.

– My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me!

– I suppose you suspect that his fortune had some bearing on the matter?

– No! I wouldn’t do your sister the dishonour.

– Though it was suggested …

– What was?

– It was made perfectly clear that an advantageous marriage…

– Did my sister give that impression?

– No, No! There was, however, I have to admit the metter of your family…

– Our want of connection? Mr Bingley didnt vex himself about that

– No, it was more than that.

– How, sir?

– It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, your three younger sisters even on occasion and your father. Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude from this.

– And what about Mr. Wickham?

– Mr. Wickham?

– What excuse can you give for your behaviour to him?

– You take an eager interest in that gentlemans’s concerns.

– He told me of his misfortunes.

– Oh yes, his misfortunes have been very great indeed.

– You ruined his chances, and yet treat him with sarcasm.

– So this is your opinion of me? Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked, it your pride had not been hurt

– My pride?

– by my honesty in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

– And those are the words of a gentleman? from the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish distain of the fellings of other, made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

– Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time.

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